Ooh....I promised myself that I was going to allot a good amount of time to do this blog.....I told myself that I was going to make it a priority....and on day 2, I find myself rushing to write what I am thinking because of the hectic life of the kids and my husband, and in turn, me. So in the very few minutes that I have, before I rush out the door for soccer, I'll do my thing.:)
I have a goal. I want to see this goal through. The problem is, that I hardly ever see a goal through, or a project, or any idea really. I am not a completer. It's my lot in life. I have to learn to accept it. But I think that there are always exceptions to the rule, and this is going to be one of them. I am aiming to lose weight. How much? Does it matter? Shouldn't it matter that I just want to be healthier, more energetic person. Oh, believe me, I want to be skinnier too....lol, I am not passing up that opportunity! But I want to believe that I mainly want to be healthier...at this point, that is B.S....hahahaha!
So, some background info. I am 28 yrs old, I am about 5'9, and I weigh in at 152 lbs, at the present time. Not an extreme weight, not even out of the "normal" zone for my age and height, but I don't think it has to do so much with weight, as it has to do with image. I hate my body. I know, I know. I have birthed 4 children in 8 years, so that contributes. And I get it, it could be worse. But for me, personally, it is awful. Somewhere between baby #2 and baby #3, I lost a bunch of weight (about 20 lbs), toned it up , and felt really, really good! That is where I want to be. I in no way, want to go back to my pre- 1st pregnancy size. I was entirely to thin, and unhealthy (115 lbs soaking wet). It has a lot to do with how I grew up, and having no money, and trust me when I say this is not going to start a "woe is me" diatribe. I was just making it known that I have seen both ends of the weight issue, and I am quite happy in the middle..:) I just need to find my "get up and go" that I seemed to have lost in the last few years. I am getting better, for sure, but I find that I get a little frustrated and maybe a little irritated that as a parent, I am supposed to show my kids how to be healthy, how to eat well, get exercise, be happy, deal with emotions, etc. But in the busy lives we lead, a lot of the time, that all gets pushed to the side. Of course, I buy lots of healthy stuffs, but I am just telling them to eat it, and I am telling them to play sports, and ride bikes and get outside.....but I am not doing it myself. Do kids subscribe to the "do as I say, don't do as I do" mantra? No. They see what I do, and figure that if mommy is doing it, it must be ok....like skipping breakfasts, or grabbing a chocolate bar instead of an apple. For those of you who would say, "well, don't buy the treats"...I say to you - GET REAL. It isn't like I am buying copious amounts. I am hardly buying it at all, in fact. But they are kids, and part of childhood is those treats and snacks and occasionally junky, gooey yumminess. So there is going to be treats in the house, regardless. And of course, 2 are also in school, and they have to have the good treats...lol.
In any case, I want them to see me treat me better. I want them to see me take the time for myself. And understand that it is important to do. Because logically, I know it, but actually doing it, is another story.
So I am starting this new 'regime', if you will. Healthy breakfasts (steel cut oats, egg white omelets, fruit, cereals, etc) then drinking low cal shakes through the day (just made of skim milk, and fresh fruit , and maybe some vanilla extract)...say 2 before lunchtime, one at 9:30ish , the next at 10:30ish. Then eat lunch, (salad, tuna, salmon, sandwich on multigrain breads, etc). Then 3 more shakes in the afternoon, at 2pm, 3pm, and 4pm. Eat supper (just what I would regularly have, cut down, and maybe made healthier) at 6pm or before, and nothing after that but water....or maybe a tea. In the morning, an hour after I eat breakfast, and send the kids out the door for school, I am going to do the Jillian Michael's Shred. Then in the evening, I will go for a walk. I tried running last year, and enjoyed it, but I like to walk more....and the more I read, the more I believe that walking is better.....huh. So. I will be documenting my eats, my workouts , and my progress. I will probably post pics. It could get ugly...lol. If this sort of thing bugs or bores you, don't tag along! Remember, as of right now...I am doing it for me. Well, mostly. Remember my profile pic? Yeah. About that. There is a woman I know, who is a photographer, and she is doing a boudoir photo shoot in the fall. And I want to do it. Not for me, for the hubby....(ooh laa laa! hehehe). But before I go flaunting what I got, I want to be happy with it. It's doable. It can happen. I just have to find time in the BIG time rush of life..:D
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