Images and Reality, what do you see?

           What am I worth?    What is it that makes me valuable to myself, and to others?    Is it monetary, emotional, physical? Is it all of those, and more? Does it matter?
           This is what I have to find out. This is what I need to know. I need to understand my place in the world, in my community, in my family, and in myself. I am by no means, a spiritual/religious person, nor do I want to be. I am comfortable in that aspect of my beliefs. I subscribe to the idea that everyone has the right to believe in any person, God or religion that they choose. I do not believe that anyone has the right to push their beliefs and ideas on anyone else. 

I am sooo new to this whole process...lol. I have sooo many things that I want to talk about, vent about, find out about. I am terrified that my true feelings, and personality will not come out the way I intend in these blogs. But, I am not intentionally doing this for anyone else.  This is for me. In a world of kids, and sports and husbands and meals, I find that though I make time to go out and things, it hardly feels that I am doing it solely for myself. It makes me feel selfish that I say this, as I start thinking that maybe I will touch or help someone else along the way. But is that ego? The thought that anyone will gain anything from this, beyond myself??  It's a conundrum, (fabulous word!)..and I guess waaaay to early to be worrying about! 

I tend to ramble a bit, and I tend to confuse even myself. I am a complicated person, but fun loving. I have a great respect for my kids and my husband (and in the future, when I refer to family, this is who I mean.) 

In my profile, my picture is of a lingerie set.....my goal.  Frivolous?  Silly?  Unrealistic, maybe not "PC". Well, so what. It's my goal. And in here comes the question. Is it an image? Is it reality? Is that all that the picture means? Could that be the most important thing to me, at this point in life? Think about it. Answer it how you see fit. Believe what you want, good or bad. Form your own opinion. Share it with me. Maybe in the future, your answer will change. Maybe it will stay the same. I wonder if my own answers will even stay the same. It will be interesting to find out.  What is your reality?